I am sitting on a bomb.. this is how I feel.... I try to secure the bomb.. if it explode not to do lot of damage, but I cannot turn it off. It is difficult ... difficult just sit and wait to see what happens and when.
Time is always there in every part of my brain... it is like a constant stress...5 minutes earlier, 5 min later... I donot have enough time to enjoy the good thing, but I have a lot to suffer.
We never have enough time to spend with our family and friends.
We donot have enough time to recover from the emotional and physical pain and sickness, we try to catch our bus, plain, time with others...
No time for rebuild our physical health...
And at the end no time to enjoy life fully because of the numerous responsibility. Life needs money. You have time but you donot have money then. You have money but no time... together hardly happens... if yes, it is great.

I am sitting on a bomb which can explode at any time... and I cannot turn it off. We getting old.. yes, everybody.. we going to die, yes, all of us. How nice would be if our seniors realize this... am I going to be the same? Feeling careless teenager even in my 70 or 80 's?  I hope not. Every elder is the same? No...
Mine are the worst... they are alone, no support whatsoever in Hungary, 2 of them in a big house and garden, with other properties, kept grandmothers properties... everything changed, they got significantly older but they kept everything in a time bubble like 40 years ago...
they want to live like that ... 40 years ago... ahh... yes, but they are over 70 now! Plus with serious illnesses... who can understand that...  God sends the signs ... everybody ignores of course...

Bomb with timing... it will explode and it will be painful for everybody.
Man with high ego of course does not want to realize the time even when they hit their nose to the fact that they are not able to do things as before...
Probably I am not the only one who watches the stupidity in their family. And you can tell where things go, but you cannot live their life to make them see what to do to stop the stupidity which leads to catastrophe. We cannot avoid our destiny, but maybe we could do risk management.
But we donot do...
Hungarian families are traditional. Men are doing their things women are theirs. Hardly ever has partnership, mostly hierarchic. But at the end of the life the woman has to take care of the man who always oppressed their women. Terrible what women has to go through many times without help.
Equity? ahhhh...