Hello ...well, ...I am back... 

I was a frequent blogger back in the 2010... around... My stories in Canada :) 

I was away for a while... why? .... LIFE 

I stopped in 2012.. I stopped because my life became unexpectedly really nice. I stopped at the best point. 

After started to be difficult and more difficult and more difficult. And still continuing... 

I went through so many things in these years... good of course and bad... 

I was in Canada, I had a job, I was able to pay rent, my expenses and I was crazy in love. What else you need ... nothing... things not stay the same though .. and that is the problem... it would be better... 

7 bad happens after 7 good ? People says... who knows I donot count ... it should be more than 7 already though. 

Time kicking, life goes on... I had everything... stealing, health issues, heartbreaks, more heartbreaks, lots of efforts to keep everything together, work, more work... and some positive, my friends, citizenship, properties.. 

Suddenly by 2018, I lost everything what I hoped for... well not everything, I am talking about only my private life... I had to realize, I built a sandcastle... it was fake, it was nothing... so many years without meaning at the end... was it a waste of time? Well... hard to say... sometimes it was beautiful, like in the paradise, sometimes it was hell. I guess it had to happen for some reason... for me a lesson, for him I was the service provider.... more or less. Back to the me alone version... not bad, at least I donot have to adjust my life to anyone. 

Why we donot learn how to communicate, how to behave, how to build a worthy, trusted relationship.. why we donot study this in school or at home, why we have to study math but not human behavior? tactics, games, manipulations, abuse... just to be prepared when you grown up you would know what is going on in your life and not just realize everything when you spent your life with the significant  other that you were in shit. 

I got to the point when I donot care about anything basically. It is probably age and whatever.. I donot care what people think about me. No shame, no guilt... I do what I feel I want to do and if someone interested enough what is happening, I explain if I want and I donot if I donot.. I donot feel responsible and obligated to explain my acts and reacts... people who are my friends they already know me, they know my values and who wants to know me, they see the very open and honest me...if they donot like, they can run. 

Did I change? Yes, certainly. I am less patient, less careful with my words and more direct, more honest, straight forward. I am only interested in the pure heart people (for friends), who does not have interest motivations.. body, money, other assets (knowing the immigration law).

Time is kicking... every minute counts...